Three Months Old

How is it possible to feel opposite emotions simultaneously?  When I look at Harper and see how much she has grown in just three months I feel so much joy and a bit of grief as we leave the newborn stage.  This whole last baby thing really tugs at your heartstrings.  Of course I am so grateful she's healthy, strong, and reaching new milestones, but is it so wrong for me to want her to be an itty bitty infant for just a while longer?  

Likes: 
-Playmat- She has started talking to the animals on her play mat and grasping on to the rings.  She prefers to be on her back, but we sneak in as much tummy time as we can.  She rolled over once from her tummy to back a few weeks ago, but hasn't seemed interested in doing it again.

-Her frog chair -- it's like a softer bumbo, and she can sit up and see around her.

-Diaper + outfit changes

-Smiling- especially at her elephant in her play mat.  

-Being held

-Drying off after a bath

Dislikes:
-Long naps

-Being hungry

-Being stuck at traffic lights

Schedule:
After reading Harrison's schedule for this month I feel like a sub-par mom.  We had such a predictable routine with him, but I was also not working or chasing a toddler around so it was definitely easier.  Each day is different- sometimes she is at the office with me, sometimes we work from home, and sometimes she stays home with Dad.  Due to the lack of predictability in our schedules and because we wanted to, we have introduced formula and she is having no issues going back and forth between that and breast milk.  She tends to fall asleep for the night around 9 and wakes up between 4-6am for her next feeding and falls back asleep until 8ish.  This last week she has been cluster feeding at night so I never know when she's going to wake up, but I'm hoping we get back to that nice, long sleeping stretch again soon.  Each day is always a little bit chaotic, but we make it work and we wouldn't change it for anything.

Features:

She just keeps growing.  She is in size 1 diapers and 0-3 month clothing, but I'm not sure how much longer that will last now that she is 12 pounds.  She still has beautiful dark brown hair, but it is starting to fall out in some unfortunate patches.  Her eyes are a greenish blue and her rolls are scrumptious.  When she is sleeping she looks like Harrison's twin, but when she's awake I still think she looks like me, with the occasional Mike angry eyebrow scowl. 

Milestones:

Harper can...

-Blow bubbles/drool

-Sleep in her crib -- A few half nights so far!  We put her down after she falls asleep and when she wakes for her middle of the night feed I bring her back into our room.  I'm hoping we'll transition her to a full night sleep in the next couple of weeks.  

-SMILE big time

Firsts:

-Disney World

-Pumpkin patch

-Road Trip

Challenges:

So far, so good.  She's the sweetest, snuggliest, smiliest little babe (I mean, c'mon, look at that dimple) and I don't have any complaints.  We're still figuring out life as a family of four, but it's pretty amazing.  

Thoughts:

It's so amazing to see her interact with us now.  Her smiles are one of my favorite things in the world and watching Harrison with her is the greatest gift.  There is nothing sweeter than catching him staring at her and talking to her when he doesn't know we are watching.  We made some pretty cool babies. 💛